i took james to the airport this morning after a night shift…had a good mom’s cry at the airport and fought back the tears most of the way home. i have two more night shifts so i will be a tired, raw bundle of emotions for quite a few days.
i knew this was coming for ages but it’s only when i walked in and saw so much of his stuff gone that even though it still feels like he is just at school, i know he won’t be here when i come home tomorrow….or the next day…
when i left him at the airport i felt every single time i have walked away from my mom to catch a plane, train or automobile all at once…it was not nice.
he was calm and cool and telling me everything would be okay but i know a chapter has ended and for the first time in 28 years i don’t have a child living with me.
he’s landed at newark new jersey and should be catching his flight to chicago soon.
i’m just really tired and wishing i didn’t have to go to work…i’ll be fine…..