Hot summer with cancer

My brother backed out of our camping trip. afterward he said it was because he didn’t feel like traveling with my new ex boyfriend but I have no doubt that it was because I lost my temper and called him out on his selfish behavior.

Last week I reached my limit with my boyfriend-besides having some wonderful qualities and generally taking very good care of me after my surgery he has a very irritating superiority complex which turns verbally abusive at times.

That’s two men bullying me around…and I’m no fucking wallflower.

My brother is still sick-very sick with Stage 4 tongue cancer-Nothing has changed there. His second round of chemo was delayed 2 weeks but has been completed. He is thin, struggles to eat and can’t really get out much due to the sun and heat.

Now that I am back living with him the full extent of his life is becoming clear. He seems to want to chat but I am grieving the end of my relationship and not really in a shoot the shit kind of mood. I try to avoid coming home after work and hide in my room the rest of the night

Last Tuesday night, I came home and surprisingly my brother did not make a beeline to me as soon as I hit the door. I set up a new air conditioner and went to his room to show him the new equipment. I found him slumped in his chair almost unresponsive. He did get up and stumbled to the kitchen, slurred his words, looked like he was going to fall over. I spent the rest of the night waiting for the “thud” when he fell to the ground.

I assumed he doubled up on his pain meds-who can blame him?

His long period of near coma must have been very restful because he was up at 5.30 the next morning re-arranging the furniture! he came in my room about 6.45 with a full breakfast on a tray….very nice gesture but not well received.

On the next 3 days I came home from work to find the furniture re-arranged. I finally told him I am unnerved to come home and have things changed for no reason. I found some stuff in my son’s apartment and when I brought it back – my brother said “oh, you wanted that there?”

Argggghhhh! I do the same dance to accommodate everyone else’s preference but this is gradually coming to an end. Cancer or no Cancer!!



documented heat wave

since just hopping in my (imaginary) car would be too easy i took the harlem ave bus back to the blue line and took that to my stop. full circle as michael palin would say….check out the chicago CTA map if you are curious about just how far that is.

so on my way back, waiting at the blue line in the hot sun…in march…i had this sign staring me

if you’ve ever had lemonheads or red hots-they were made in this factory next to the blue line with the very informative clock and thermometer!!

funny and sad

it’s really funny to see the brits coping with the current “heatwave”. it’s supposed to be about 22C today that’s about 72F…not exactly sweltering.

England – West Midlands

West Midlands Forecast


Dry and warm with plenty of sunshine.


A fine, dry and warm day across all areas with largely clear skies giving plenty of strong sunshine. A slightly fresher feel compared to Friday. Light to moderate east to south-easterly winds. Maximum temperature 22 deg C (72 deg F).


A dry and sunny evening giving a pleasant end to the day and then remaining dry overnight with generally clear skies. Light to moderate east to north-easterly winds. Minimum temperature 9 deg C (48 deg F).


Another dry day across all areas with plenty of sunshine, this generally unbroken during the morning, although there is likely to be some patchy cloud around in the afternoon. Maximum temperature 24 deg C (75 deg F).

yesterday i heard it got up to 26C which would push it closer to 80F…still not exactly a heat wave by chicago standards.

but people were struggling…..getting out all that pale, pasty skin.

most people don’t seem to enjoy it at all, they walk around with a pained expression on their faces….and it doesn’t help that most places don’t have A/C.

i spent the day out and about yesterday, we had lunch at a chinese place and it was pretty uncomfortable…

one hint: there is a reason why people have drinks with lots of ice in the summertime!!!

okay, that’s the funny part, the sad part??

i’m one of them now!